I feel like giving up.
I fail to see the point of having my single mom continue to throw money at something that is so completely pointless. I have not improved at all in a year. It seems to me like I’ve actually gotten worse. My stamina is still completely awful and I am just not a good dancer. And if I ever make it to OC, I’ll just spend 2 years losing at that level until I graduate high school and have to quit for good.
And my awkwardness doesn’t make it much better. Feising every weekend just puts me in too many awkward situations because I always feel like people hate me and I never want to let my teachers or my mom down.
i was going to ask my mom for a NEW DRESS. What a fucking joke. I don’t deserve a new dress when I can’t even dance decently anymore. Like why do people even pretend I’m good? I’m awful and the worst part is I’m even worse at competitions than I am during class. As evidenced by how i have NEVER RECALLED AT OIREACHTAS. Almost 16 years old and I couldn’t even do that…
Just fml. I am destroying any chance I could have had at having a normal social life with school friends so I can chase after a dream that will never freaking come true.
What is the point.
I know there’s the epilogue too, but this symbolizes that we’ve been there ever since the beginning. We’ve been with them for half their lifes, the war, and the victory.
There’s a lot of things that have happened in 19 years, much more than we know about.
I’m sorry but this is the most ridiculous thing i’ve ever seen. It’s a book series. Yes you like it and you’re sad it’s over. I get that. Saying that your life is over, though, because the last movie came out is just ridiculous.
(Source: drarrysexual)
